I don't exactly have the best track records with friends and lovers and family. I always end up running away or letting go, or choosing to forget the people that did love me at one point.
I found I lost touch with a lot of people around the time I was at university - its a natural process, I think. I've seen it happen to lots of others too. Your needs change, their needs change, you go different paths and find new friends. The good ones stay with you, even if you are not always the best at keeping in touch all the time. The less important ones will fall by the wayside.
Maybe all my past relationships didn't work because I didn't let them.
You're only 21. How likely is it that you would have found one of the loves of your life already? Not very likely I suspect.
Maybe I've lost touch and lost relationships with the people I once cared so much about because I'm afraid.
This is possible. Fear of getting rejected first can be a problem, but you can't let it hamstring you. Better to be Spike than Xander any day, IMO.
How the fuck am I ever supposed to help people if I can't even fucking help myself?
If you had no problems of your own, how could you identify with anyone else who had problems?
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Date: 2005-02-07 02:46 pm (UTC)I found I lost touch with a lot of people around the time I was at university - its a natural process, I think. I've seen it happen to lots of others too. Your needs change, their needs change, you go different paths and find new friends. The good ones stay with you, even if you are not always the best at keeping in touch all the time. The less important ones will fall by the wayside.
Maybe all my past relationships didn't work because I didn't let them.
You're only 21. How likely is it that you would have found one of the loves of your life already? Not very likely I suspect.
Maybe I've lost touch and lost relationships with the people I once cared so much about because I'm afraid.
This is possible. Fear of getting rejected first can be a problem, but you can't let it hamstring you. Better to be Spike than Xander any day, IMO.
How the fuck am I ever supposed to help people if I can't even fucking help myself?
If you had no problems of your own, how could you identify with anyone else who had problems?
Chill.
xxx