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Okay...so talk about an emotional day. Ugh...need prozac much? This morning, I almost killed a girl for taking my laundry out before I was done. Then I got all upset because I can't get ahold of a book I need for Reading Poetry and I have to do a paper by Monday. Then I got really awed when I went to get the last bit of laundry, and someone had folded it and put it on the counter in a basket. Then I got mad again. Now I'm kinda sad and bummed out. I'm thinking a lot about Chris. I've been trying not to cuz it really sucks and it's starting to get to me quite a bit. Funny, you'd think a future psychologist would be willing to deal with their emotions...not me. Emotions = bad. I really should try and deal with it. I just don't have time to yet. On the one hand, I really really really want him back, but on the other, I know it is the right thing to do what we did. I want to move on, but I don't. Yeah, you think it's confusing, be me for a day. I don't know what to do. And then Jen isn't talking to me for some reason. I guess classes are okay, but I'm not interested in any of them, aside from Bradshaw's class. The rest, it's like my body's there, but I'm not. I can't seem to concentrate on anything. I'm just goin through the motions, it seems like. I just want this phase to be over. It sucks feeling just blah.