2007-12-30
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Gift to me forever.
It's pretty much a done deal. I love him. I say it a lot - how I've never felt this way before or that way before, and in the end it always dissapoints and I always get hurt. But this is a total first for me. Somehow, this wonderful guy has managed to take my (not so) little insecurities and brush them away. He's realistic - he knows there will be problems that every relationship has. For some reason hearing (or...reading) that makes it all seem more real to me. I've never been a "best thing" before. And I'm not at all scared. Which is pretty amazing considering the last time I thought it was real. This seems different though. I can't really explain it. You know...he's the first one to ever say "I love you" to me. No one's ever said or done what he has. I feel pretty special right now.
And I think, just for once in my life, I'm going to not analyze it and pick it apart. I think I'm just going to enjoy this feeling and this...this.
Although I don't think it's a coincidence that this past month I've been overall happier than at any time in my life.
So there's that. Now I need to clean my apartment.
And I think, just for once in my life, I'm going to not analyze it and pick it apart. I think I'm just going to enjoy this feeling and this...this.
Although I don't think it's a coincidence that this past month I've been overall happier than at any time in my life.
So there's that. Now I need to clean my apartment.