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I'm a bad bad man. Also, apparently, a hipocryte. *whistles innocently*
Tom just left. Notice the name change. heh. Well, that second date with Roland never happened; he kept putting it off. He's not a bad guy at all, and I do like him. But he's quite a bit of a flake in the romance department. One of those guys that says he'll call but never does, makes plans but never really follows through. Not mean like, just forgetful. So after a few days of leaving messages and not wanting to be that desperate guy, I decided to back off. Plus, I'd made that decision not to rush into it, blah blah. I could easily see that turning into an off-on thing for quite a while, and that is so not what I want/need right now.
Enter: Tom. A few days ago he myspaced me out of the blue. We started talking, one thing led to another, he came over the night before last and wound up haning out until I had to go work yesterday morning. Then he came over last night...and stayed. No sex (go me!), no skinemax. I really like hanging out with him, spending time. So I think I'm going to follow this and see where it goes, we're hanging out again next weekend.
But here's the thing - he's younger. Like, a lot (to me) younger. 18. Which, true, age shouldn't matter. But at that age, there are so many changes happening. Not to mention he's in college (a private christian college, at that) about an hour away. Criminal Justice major. This is exactly what I ridiculed Frank for. Granted, there are some pretty big differences - the first being that I didn't use someone/make them fall in love with me just to get Tom. And the other is that I haven't been dating him since he was 15. So maybe it is different, but something's kinda gnawing at my conscience. And there's a thousand reasons why I shouldn't pursue this. But I like him. And I know the feeling is mutual. And it was so nice to wake up next to someone again.
So I'm not sure what I'm going to do. It's not really a dilema at all. Just...something new. I think I'm just going to not think about it, and see what happens.
Tom just left. Notice the name change. heh. Well, that second date with Roland never happened; he kept putting it off. He's not a bad guy at all, and I do like him. But he's quite a bit of a flake in the romance department. One of those guys that says he'll call but never does, makes plans but never really follows through. Not mean like, just forgetful. So after a few days of leaving messages and not wanting to be that desperate guy, I decided to back off. Plus, I'd made that decision not to rush into it, blah blah. I could easily see that turning into an off-on thing for quite a while, and that is so not what I want/need right now.
Enter: Tom. A few days ago he myspaced me out of the blue. We started talking, one thing led to another, he came over the night before last and wound up haning out until I had to go work yesterday morning. Then he came over last night...and stayed. No sex (go me!), no skinemax. I really like hanging out with him, spending time. So I think I'm going to follow this and see where it goes, we're hanging out again next weekend.
But here's the thing - he's younger. Like, a lot (to me) younger. 18. Which, true, age shouldn't matter. But at that age, there are so many changes happening. Not to mention he's in college (a private christian college, at that) about an hour away. Criminal Justice major. This is exactly what I ridiculed Frank for. Granted, there are some pretty big differences - the first being that I didn't use someone/make them fall in love with me just to get Tom. And the other is that I haven't been dating him since he was 15. So maybe it is different, but something's kinda gnawing at my conscience. And there's a thousand reasons why I shouldn't pursue this. But I like him. And I know the feeling is mutual. And it was so nice to wake up next to someone again.
So I'm not sure what I'm going to do. It's not really a dilema at all. Just...something new. I think I'm just going to not think about it, and see what happens.