Words can't even express...

How incredibly alone I am right now.

I officially declare every single person ever attached to me...can fuck off.

My mom couldn't care less. My friends couldn't care less.

I couldn't care less.

I am an orphan without a family. As far as I am concerned; they can all burn. I am tired of sticking out my neck for people that don't care about me. That includes her and him. My brother and sister and sister-in law, I'm sorry they are caught in the crossfire, but everyone in the QCs can go to hell. I try to do something good and nice, but it blows up in my face. So fuck them all.


P.S. Obviously, I don't mean everyone. Still love all of you

Is a man still a man when he has nothing left to stand on?

I knew going that party was a bad idea. I just knew it.

The short story: me and my mom had a huge blowout fight, in which we both said things we shouldn't have. I got so upset, so incredibly hurt and angry that I took off and left her there, telling her that if she doesn't need me, than she can find her own way back to the hotel. And, though I want to make sure she gets home okay, and I wish her well - all of them well - I can't do this anymore. I'm cutting ties.


( The long story: )

She just called and talked a little bit. It'll be okay, but I don't think we'll be as close as we were.

All's not lost

It's okay. We kinda talked things out, and I got some stuff off my chest. But now I feel terrible because she feels guilty.

You know, this too is a result of me not being entirely honest with people about my feelings. If I had opened up a little, or at all, maybe things wouldn't have happened the way they did.

I really wish I knew how to just let go.

But I guess it's time to just slap on a happy face.

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And, not to beat a dead horse.

But I'm kinda missing Todd tonight.