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Went to the party. Got totally smashed. No drama. Stumbled the 15 or so blocks back to Vives and proceeded to have a nervous breakdown upon entering there appartment. I cried for approximately 20 minutes and let it all out. Everything from my mother to grace to him. Everything. I could tell Vive was kind of creeped out that *I* lost it.

Hmph. Guess I'm not as okay as I thought I was. Or maybe now, I am.

And also. I'm done trying for him. Don't care anymore.

oh god

someone stop me. i just about put in Titanic. break my hands or something.

*sigh*