But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it.

Damn. In love with this song now. Never heard it until today. Thinkin about buying the album now. Has everyone heard it? It's pretty amazing. And just what I need right now. Kind of still in that lonley "will it ever happen for me" slump. Sucky place to be usually. I'm learning to live with it though. But I keep going back. Kinda driving me a little batty. Why do I think so much about Chris. I mean, it's almost two years since we first got together. And I still think about it all the time. Jeeze, is this normal? Anyone who's been in my shoes got any advice? Because this is way different then all of my other relationships. This one got way under the normal layers. So there's that. Enough said.

Movin on...11 days left until I move back to school!!! I'm really excited. And nervous. And extremely anxious about the coming quarter. I have to do a thousand percent better this year to make up for my "oops" quarter last year. I really think I can do it, but it's going to take a lot of hard work. And sometimes I just don't want to. But I can't do that anymore. I gotta do the best I can. *whimpers looking at stack of books to be read for classes*. Ah well...it'll all pay off.

And that's another thing. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I mean, really, I absolutely love psychology. It really does fascinate me, and I'd love to be in it forever. But I don't know if I want to be a psychologist anymore. I mean, I do, but I don't. Just a little apprehension about so much school and so much hard work. Yeah, I know the work will be worth it, right? But what if it's not? What if I finally get the degree after 6+ years of school, and find out that it doesn't make me happy? I'd be out almost 100g's and miserable. Okay, as if that's not enough, aside from this I've been thinking that if I don't want to do that anymore, what do I want to do? And what I've come up with: I haven't the foggiest. I'm still in love with the idea of being an architect, but I don't know if that's for me. *le sigh* Just a tad bit confused/doubtful/afraid of my future. Ah my control freak side. Gotta love that. Eh, I guess everyone kinda goes through this at some point. I think. I hope. Right? Heh.

Despite all of this, I'm pretty cheery. Things are going well. A few problems at work, but what else is new, right? You win some, you lose some. With BK, you just lose a lot more than ya win;) S'okay though. Because only 6 working days left until that place is behind me FOREVER.

OOOOoooo and in other news, I discovered, thanks to a happy accident brought on by bloodroses27's mistake, I discoverd Rue 21. And thereby discovered my new "leather" jacket for 19.99!!! And a couple shirts and a pair of jeans. Yay for shopping. Yay for cheap clothing. Yay for everything. Hee. Okay, enough for tonight. Specially since none of y'all bitches ever read *glares*

*smiles innocently* Not you of course.