Why you shouldn't take naps

You know what really sucks?

Lying in bed all fucking night and not being able to sleep. At all.

I seriously haven't slept.

And I have my 2nd stats exam at 3:00. But first I have to go to Modern Judaism. *cries*

I think I started to doze off at 10:00 (which would have been pointless because I had to get up at 11, but oh well) and the fucking phone rings.

I'm hungry but I don't want to eat because I'm fat.

I think I may just kill the first person who says anything or does anything to annoy me today. Don't be suprised if my next post is from Lake County Jail.

Now I have to go put on a fucking happy face so people will leave me the hell alone and stop asking what's wrong. Because when I say I'm tired, they all start telling me how it's obviously my fault I can't sleep, and that I should try being in their shoes-too busy to sleep. Yeah, fuck you asshole.

I fucking hate these two classes - they are the bain of my existance. Can I go home yet? I just want to go home and crawl into my nice soft bed (not the fucking bricks for beds we have in this shithole) and not get out of it again until the health board, or my parents, kick me out.

I don't think I've said this before, so you're in for a shock. I hate this place. I hate this place like I hate Reverand Phelps. I hate this place like I hate spiders. I hate this place and I cannot wait to get away from this hell. That's what it is. It's the same thing every fucking day, with no escape. Monday blends into Tuesday and Wednesday bleeds into Thursday and every week Friday just seems to get further and further away, and when it finally gets here it's like I wake up Friday morning, and when I go to bed that night, it's already Sunday night. I want to be free. I don't want to be in class anymore. I don't want to take anymore fucking menial tests that show nothing. I don't want to deal with stupid people who pretend they know everything when in fact they know nothing. I just want to be free and away from everything.


Can you tell I get cranky when I haven't slept?

Um. What?

Jesus Christ. I just watched Donnie Darko, cuz I bought it tonight. Grace said it was really good, so I figured why not? Right now, I'm like. What the fuck? I just...I mean. Huh?

It was good. But totally fucked up. The director/writer/whatever had to have been on drugs. It was fucked up like American Beauty meets Requiem for a Dream and has a baby. I mean. I love fucked up and artistic movies. But damn. I think this one takes the cake. Damn that shit is fucked up.