Okay, so it looks like there's a 99.9% chance that my school is going to close next year. That is, a year before I graduate. Which means I have to find another school. This kinda makes me sad. On the one hand, Barat's the place I've been happiest. I've grown up a lot here, and I had my first adult relationship with someone I actually loved here. There's a lot of things here that will be hard to give up and say good-bye to. And the thought of having spent all this money on a "DePaul education" only to transfer to a different school kinda ticks me off. But let's face it, being at Barat of DePaul is bad enough. I don't think I'd be able to do 100% pure DePaul without going stark raving mad. *shrugs* I guess it'll be a good thing to go to a cheaper school, you know, save money and stuff from loans and what-not. But still... All my closest friends are here, and we all know how well I am with keeping in touch.
But, on the other hand, I think it'll be good for me. To finally be out all on my own, a definate change of scenery. Then I can fully become myself without feeling all shy and my behavior opressed and all that jazz. And then I can, like
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frolic9, be all growed up. Especially if I can find a school in the city. I wanna go somewhere where I can find myself and all that. A lot of people are trying to convince me to transfer to the LPC, but I wanna be free dammit. I don't know. I guess now I start the endless search for schools, visits, open houses and meetings with financial aid people and admissions people. Ugh. Wasn't that one of the reasons I came here anyway? to not have to deal with all that. Bleck. I think I need a xanex.
