Okay...

So for fun I did the slut thing, it's ( here )

I tried to do the deathday thing, but it wouldn't work. In other news, I'm sad, very tired, and kinda sick of being home. My parents are manic-depressive I swear! They're both having some pretty bad mood swings, even for them. It's quiet now, Mom took the kid with her to do some shopping and Mark is at work. Since I started work last Monday, I have worked like 65 hours, that's a 65 hour week! Today is my first day off...ahhhh....quiet....I haven't been sleeping well at all...every morning when the sun comes up I'm still awake, but I still get up about 10 or 11. I keep staying up thinking about the money shit and work and school (I got my grades- C+, A-, B+, B-) but mostly about Chris. I think it's finally starting to hit me...I also think that's one reason I can't sleep - there's no one else in bed with me. Up till now, and even still a little, I think I'm kind of in denial ( i know, i know, Brad? you say). I keep expecting to go up to school in August and us still be together. I keep thinking that maybe plans for Vegas will fall through, he'll stay around and we can stay together. I know the chances are slim to none, but for some reason I'm holding on to them. Some guy tried to pick me up one night, and I turned him down without thinking about it and told him I was in a relationship... hmmm... I really miss him. I really think it was *the* big time. I keep having the sudden urge to hop in my car, drive up there and tell him I love him and tell him not to leave me. But, I guess if it was meant to be, we'll be together another time. This just really bites. I really miss him...

Okay...time to lay around and do nothing for a while.