good for you, hon. i'm actually really glad for you, even though it's been a shitty couple of days for you. but sometimes i guess it takes getting to the breaking point to grow.
and i don't see how you can grow in a claustrophobic environment like this without hitting the breaking point.

just remember, don't push happiness away if it happens to come to you. it can be pretty fleeting, but it's worth it when it's there.