Day one

[synapticjava]

It wound up being a much more difficult night than I thought it would.  I cried till I made myself sick and passed out a couple of hours before I had to get up for work.  So far, though, this morning's been the hardest.  I guess I thought I'd wake up, and everything would be the way it was, but there he was, sleeping in the other room.  Felt like curling into ball and dieing.  There have been moments throughout th day that I've checked out for a bit.

It's not the end of the world, but for at least a few seconds at a time it feels like it.

This too shall pass.  I just hope it hurries.

Comments

[tabaqui]

Ah, man.
*hugs*
It *will* pass, but yeah...it'll hurt. I'm sorry it didn't work like you thought it would, but i'm glad you're staying. I think being out of Chicago will help, in the long run.
*hugs*

[tsavoritegarnet.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

things will get easier. Stick it out and keep talking anyway.

[caviling]

I keep trying to come up with something helpful and wise, something about not wanting to wish away your pliable heart because that's what makes you so capable of good and so interesting and artistic and all that but I wouldn't be saying anything you don't already know. I'm so sorry you're hurting but I'm so glad you're strong enough to get through this in whatever time it takes. Keeping you in my prayers.