i finally got around to reading every chapter (i'd had the memories list saved for ages) and let me say... girl, i love this. it has EVERYTHING i want in a story: Xan and Spike bonding over their shared pain; drifting away from the Scoobies; getting rid of Anya; Willow finally being told off; Xander standing up for himself, not to mention having what sounds like a really great job which finally appreciates him. just -- wow. i adore this. i can't wait for the next part... although i'm still worried about the dreams, and how many lies Xan seems to be hiding behind just to get some space...

anyway! love it, can't wait for more!