No, I don't know what you're talking about but I'm glad you're UP and not down! You are beautiful, a good person who should be proud of what they are and no, you don't deserve to have have bad things happen.

And yes, I am going to the doctor next week, for that oh so fun "yearly." Women need to be lectured to about not being afraid and embarrassed as well...While it's ICKY, it's important.