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synapticjava ([personal profile] synapticjava) wrote2005-04-20 05:29 pm

I'm so done

I fucking give up.

I'm in a god-damn awful mood, and why can't people just fucking respect the fact that I don't like to smoke pot anymore? Why can't they understand the fact that I dated a FUCKING DEALER and that things didn't go WELL.

Fuck, I'm sick of this shit.

And I'm sick of feeling incompetent and stupid all the time. Fuck this.

[identity profile] chocgood84.livejournal.com 2005-04-21 03:13 pm (UTC)(link)
I just personally don't like the feeling of not being in control of my own body. And yes, I suppose that when I find out someone I'm attracted to or am interested in tells me they smoke pot, they drop quite a bit from my radar. But it's more survival than anything, I think. I just don't want to go through that again.