ETA: Morning after post - having thought about it most of the night, I realize it really isn't quite so traumatic. So, I move on.

Yes, there's sometimes a good a reason we repress stuff!
"Worse things happen at sea!"
But have you read any of Eliade's "Season Noir"? In her latest update, there's a great line, spoken by Spike to Xander: "Sire and clan'll unman you if you let them, pet."
How very true.