Such a fucking loser.

[synapticjava]

So tonight I started getting depressed, so I turned to the age-old tradition of shopping. Bout a whole new outfit - two new pin stripe button ups, new pair of jeans and a nice brown sweater, a new CD and White Christmas. Tomorrow, the jeans and sweater are going back - way too expensive and they make me look even fatter.

Anyway, needless to say the mood has not lifted. I am so fucking tired, but I don't feel like crawling in bed and tossing and turning for six hours trying to fall asleep again, and I really don't want to take any sleeping pills. Maybe I'll go and work on the fic I'm writing. BTW for those that care, WB should be out soon.

God I fucking hate this. I'm not good at anything and nothing goes the way I want it to. Why can't I be done with school now, be out on my own and leave all this fucking shit behind me. Fuck, sometimes I wish I could just start over. There's a damn reset button on everything else.

Comments

[mistyblue83.livejournal.com]

*hug* & yes you are good at stuff!! Cheer up. :-D

I'm ready to be done with school too. I think when I'm finally done. The day of my graduation I'm just going to leave.. not tell anyone where I'm going.

& I wish I could start over also.. actually I think about that everyday. Wouldn't it be so awesome to start your life over with knowing what you know now. Ok maybe I'm weird..

[chocgood84.livejournal.com]

Well yeah, you are wierd, but I know what you mean :) Thanks.