Relationships... relationships are so fucking weird. How somebody can literally mean the world to you one day, and then be the person you cannot even say hello to the next. It terrifies me how temporal human relationships are. But then there's that feeling that people never really leave you. They change you, and there are always pieces of them within you because of it. I don't know if that's for the best, but it makes me feel better sometimes. That nothing was as fleeting as it seemed. That these relationships had meaning simply because they gave us experiance and changed us in some way.

And I agree... I wouldn't miss them for the world. I suppose the price that we pay is the aftermath, right? Something so incredable cannot come without a price.

I don't know... I hope you're feeling better this morning. I hope these feelings go away soon. I remember you telling me that it never gets easier, that my relationship with Amanda will never feel resolved. But it has been getting easier... and I feel slightly more resolved. I think over time it'll all be okay. These'll be the relationships we look on with nostalgia when we're older, and truely committed to people. Would we actually want to erase them from our conciousness?

Sorry for the rambling. I hope it (kinda) made sense.