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synapticjava) wrote2004-04-04 12:56 am
synapticjava) wrote2004-04-04 12:56 am
Those are the blessed that do not remember
I can't remember the exact quote, but it's something like that and I really fucking love it. It's quoted in Eternal Sunshine on the Spotless Mind. Which I saw again tonight. I implore everyone to see this movie. It's so good. I can't explain how deeply it touches me. *sniffle* It's just so beautiful.
Anyway, in a good mood tonight;) Well, actually a little nostalgic. I was talking to Dan tonight, and the subject got around to old Barat people, which led to Chris. I think I have come to the conclusion that Chris isn't like anyone else I've ever dated. He will always be a part of me. I think I need to learn to accept that. He's not just another ex that doesn't have anything to do with who I am now. He's a major part of the person I'm becoming. And I think that's why I've had so many problems with the whole thing. Instead of trying to cope with everything and grow from it, I've tried to leave it behind and that won't work. I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about. It's such an odd feeling.
Anyway, for those that were worried, I'm back on track. As for the job, I do have to suck it up, there's not much else I can do. However, I kind of feel like if I let it get to me as much as it has, "they're" winning, ya know? So, I'm going to do what needs to be done, and that means I need to chill out on the work-front of my life. I'm there to do a job. No more, no less.
Brandon called again while we were in the movie. I really want to call him back, but he goes to bed pretty early. He seems like such a great guy. I really want to make a connection with him. I think it'd be really good for me.
Well, I'm off to re-organize my cd's. G'nite all. Love to everyone.
Anyway, in a good mood tonight;) Well, actually a little nostalgic. I was talking to Dan tonight, and the subject got around to old Barat people, which led to Chris. I think I have come to the conclusion that Chris isn't like anyone else I've ever dated. He will always be a part of me. I think I need to learn to accept that. He's not just another ex that doesn't have anything to do with who I am now. He's a major part of the person I'm becoming. And I think that's why I've had so many problems with the whole thing. Instead of trying to cope with everything and grow from it, I've tried to leave it behind and that won't work. I'm sure some of you know what I'm talking about. It's such an odd feeling.
Anyway, for those that were worried, I'm back on track. As for the job, I do have to suck it up, there's not much else I can do. However, I kind of feel like if I let it get to me as much as it has, "they're" winning, ya know? So, I'm going to do what needs to be done, and that means I need to chill out on the work-front of my life. I'm there to do a job. No more, no less.
Brandon called again while we were in the movie. I really want to call him back, but he goes to bed pretty early. He seems like such a great guy. I really want to make a connection with him. I think it'd be really good for me.
Well, I'm off to re-organize my cd's. G'nite all. Love to everyone.