Discovered Fine Frenzy this weekend.  For better or worse, this song has been on loop for two days now.

I'm doing better.  Still in some pain, still can't really sleep.  But, I think it's better this time around, easier somehow.  Maybe it's because I understand this.  Maybe it's because I'm a little older now.  At least it doesn't seem like the end of the world, that's a step in the right direction for me.  Usually I'm devastated after a break up.  Right now I'm a little sad, but it'll pass.  The sun still rises, the day still comes, and all of that.  I'm keeping up appearances for my friends, though.  I wish I didn't have to, or feel like I have to.  But it's easier than answering the questions, facing the sad eyes of people I'm realizing don't really know me as well as they used to.  It's almost funny if it weren't so sad - my mom seemed to take the news worse than I did.  She really liked him.  I was supposed to take vacation time the first week of March - his spring break - so we could visit Mom and Dad.  I haven't decided if I want to still go or not.  I should, if only to see them.  I just don't want to face them.  It's, and I know it's ridiculous, embarrassing to me.  Another bf come and gone.  I feel like I've disappointed them somehow.  Funny, huh?  Maybe I'll go to Chicago for a few days instead, look up some old friends.

At least tomorrow's a work day.  I've been cooped up in this apartment for a couple days now, it'll be nice to put my time and energy to use at something.  I've been writing a little, and it feels good.  I'd forgotten that feeling.  Anyway, I think I might be a little tired now, so I should take advantage of it while I can.
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( Feb. 16th, 2009 04:25 am)
Said I'd been writing.  I give you, "Don't Do It."  It's awful.  I wish I still had that talent I used to have.

Don't Do It )



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